Lisa Shea Forums Parakeets General Parakeet Chat Kookie died, i am a mess. i feel so guilty help

well i have been here but not logged in for quite sometime, out of guilt.
one of my beloved birds has died. my mischevious kookie monster, beautiful bird!!
i didn't want to leave the house one day, but needed to, still feeling wierd about leaving but again had too go get my kid at soccor. when we got home kookie had managed to pull a piece of twine off of a mobile hanging outside of the cage and she hung herself! i am terrorized. the image is imprinted. i don't know HOW she got the string since it is outside the cage, i don't know how she got it?!!!!!!?!?
let alone the hanging. i shrieked in horror and cried cried cried. her mate was so so sad. my husband had to take her out i just couldn't do it. but i did sit with her after he took the string off and her eyes were all bloody. OMg the pain she must have been in to sruggle to get out?! OMG> i feel so horrible and sad. the pain she must have been in! ughh...
there were feathers everywhere too. she was so stunning and funny but mischivieous. anyhow i am back and dealing with my failure. i still do not know how she got the piece of string. it was chewed off, about 2-3 inches. i have removed a lot of toys and things in fear of it happening again. kookie's mate toasty was a mess and the other girl puff. but they are doing better. jack and sally are in another cage they are now both girls and sally wants toasty too! he is a hot item at this point. not sure if i need males for all the girls cause sally and jack spar in the cage and the last thing i need is another death. i bought this fake parakeet at amazon that is so cute and chirps are real and moves with sensors and jack or jackie rather is in love with it, she now copies the chirp to a tee. anyhow, getting sidetracked. just so sad at the site of losing kookie and the way she died to me i take to heart cause i broke my neck and have chronic pain so the idea that she did that and suffered any pain crushes my soul
ok fellow p-keeters thanks for reading, just wanted to let you know what was up! i failed. i still cannot believe it. i miss her and her antics. sob sob sob. do you think the other birds are permanently affected ? they watched the whole thing.
ugggh...............................

That is really sad and my whole heart goes out to you and your birds. Please don't blame yourself as it was a real bad accident, you loved Kookie alot and that is enough for him I am sure. Be positive and think about the good times with Kookie and he will be happy in bird heaven

thanks for your kind words. i just cannot get the image of pain out of my mind. i feel horrible.

I so so sorry that you had to go through this. I wish I could give you a big hug. It was a horrid tragic accident. He is in a better place happy and flying free. Many many hugs to you.

What a shame. Sorry to hear this. Please don't blame yourself -- you had thought the twine was out of Kookie's reach -- it's not as though you were negligent. R.I.P. Kookie.

Aw dang! I am so sorry and I can imagine how you must feel, but they are such curious little things. My Romena will put her head through anything! When I first saw her doing this I took out things that she might get stuck in. She also (trying to get out of the cage to get to Tweety, whose the only male, in another cage), trys to get BEHIND things, I guess thinking that she can get out that way. So I changed their food and water and treat dishes to ones that sit flush against the side of the csge. I've got to stay one step ahead of them all the time! You poor dear! My heart goes out to you. How are the other birdies doing with this? RIP Cookie!

What a sad story. I am so sorry.

Out hamster suffocated by somehow shutting herself into her 'bedroom' and getting her head stuck in the bedding. I still feel guilty about that.

But it's true ~ animals are curious, and will have accidents.
It's always hard to lose them, and always easy to feel guilty.

I am so sorry budgiesrule. What a horrible thing to experience
No matter how vigilant and careful we are,accidents DO happen.You're a terrific keetie mom br..don't ever doubt that.((((((HUGS)))))

RIP lil Kookie^

RIP Kookie. You don't have anything to blame yourself for it was an accident.

omg... budgies rule... i am sooo sorry to hear this.:( we cannot know what impossible things can happen nor predict an event. hindsight is 20/20 and often makes it harder to bear when you can understand what went on. loosing a keet is hard, even when you know they are ill or just finding them on the cage bottom with no evidence as to what happened. the scene you came home to must have been horrifing to the extreme. i do have to say, (though it will probably mean nothing to you) it was over faster than you are thinking. (i saw a tangle in a toy inside the cage start. by the time i got up from my chair, crossed the room and got my hands inside the cage, it was over. litterally only seconds. my fingers... that went in to stop the tangle, ended up doing the same job your husband's did. there were yellow feathers all over in the blink of an ete. i found out after, that birds will spontaneously drop feathers if endangered. mahy keets and wild birds have shed tail feathers when something surprises them from behind. it ia a natural protective escape mechanism.
it was alot faster than you must think, kookie really didn't suffer, from my experience, it was over pretty much by the time the realization hit that something was wrong. i am crying for you and the pain you must feel, it hurts...bad.
listen to me on this if nothing else... YOU ARE NOT AT FAULT.
accidents are called accidents for a very good reason. please don't blame yourself.you could not have prevented a freak accident like that. i, to this day have never put a toy with a string on it in a cage again. i had put the toy in that my little barney got tangeled in. it was a toy i had bought for her. i was much younger then and never questioned safety because it was a "store bought toy". we all know that you would never have a dangerous thing there on purpose. you did nothing wrong, i know this is very cliche but it's the truth... it's just one of those sad, sad things. ((((hugs))))
fly with the angels,
R.I.P kookie