gus, i am soo sorry.

like br, you must be hurting soo badly. my heart is breaking for you both. first time is horrid as are any others. people who have loving, giving hearts will never get used to it. any death is like the first, they are all a loss of something special. think of all the good stuff. your little baby wouldn't want you to be sad. same with you br. your keets love you and would not want to see you hurting. it is hard to go on but ...
you will. remember all the fun, wonderful times, that will be a huge help to your hearts.
i wish i could be there to hug you both. you are in my prayers.
(((HUGS)))
fly with the angels
R.I.P sonya