i just cant get out of this funk, i keep thinking about her and her last moments with me.. she always chirped, but not really the singing kind.. and when she was in my hand and i set her down, she tried talking, very softly. and just recently i kept trying to teach her to do "kisses" and i would say kisses and make a kissing noise and she loved it, but she never mocked me. and when i was talking to her and praying for her, i said i love you, kisses and i made the noise, and she slightly made a smooch noise, but it was really soft. i just broke down. i miss her so much and she was my first parakeet. i will never replace her, i did so much for her.
my finace took me to the pet store to cheer me up and he said i should get 2 parakeets and a big cage, but i dont want to quite yet. plus, im unsure on 2. he just wants me to be happy and he thinks it would be good for me if i got one identical to my bird and named him/her "junior."
i just cant do it quite yet:(