max passed away during the night last night.
the vet is going to do a necropsy to know exactly what happened. so i cant have him to bury him or anything, i cant hold him one last time or anything.
i wish i had know the last time i saw him would be really the last time.
he died all alone in an incubater probally looking for me ... and i wasnt there for him.
i feel like i didnt do enough, i didnt do things right ...
i want him back and my heart is just broken ... ive been in tears literally all day i cant get out of bed ... and samaa wont SHUT UP .... she knows max is gone im sure and she has been screeching all day and its driving me crazy i cant do anything to make her happy i feel like such a failure.
just wanted to let everyone know.