Yes, I think that we are probably all contradictions of what we think we are, want to be, really are, perceived to be, etc, etc.

It's a difficult question, because we feel that only we, ourselves, really know what is going on inside us, yet only others can really know how we behave to the outside world.

Which is the real me?

Without that mirror it's hard to be sure.

"The secret of success is constancy to purpose" - Benjamin Disraeli.